The light......

I wanted to mention that even though I have been writing for almost a full month and most of my posts are about the idea of an illusionary self that is our ego and how we can find out who we really are that I have not mastered what I am writing about. I am working on it. I have an understanding about what is going on and how to be able to let go of it. I am practicing letting go. But I know true freedom is out there and sometimes I do see the light at the end of the tunnel.

But maybe we will never get to a point to have absolutely no attachments. Why bother being in a body? What if I get to that point? What if I am not attached to photography, my camera’s, beautiful girls or “venti extra hot soy no water chai latte’s” at Starbucks any more? What would it mean besides saving me quite some energy trouble and money? Does it make sense to stick around when we are not attached to anything any more? Or does it mean that it is time to move on and look for another adventure?

The beautiful thing about letting go of attachments is that life looses its seriousness. There is not really anything to accomplish, we can concentrate on joy because we realize that this is all what life is about at the end anyway. There is no future, there is no past, life is happening right here in the moment. Every moment without projecting into the future or analyzing the past is perfect. There is no fear there is no regret life is happening moment by moment.

If I just could do it. I am still struggling with ideas that I have. One of them is that if you work very hard you get rewarded for it. I know that the main thing to get what you want is to feel good about yourself and to know that you deserve anything you want. We usually have to work hard to feel we deserve whatever it is that we want. So why not skip that part? Here comes practice into play. Like with everything else we have to make experiences to believe that things are not how we believed them to be. The moments we understand that our ideas are wrong we can let go of our brainwashing.

Another important point is that letting go of the ego is not about success. If somebody only concentrates on success it might be better to keep it. Letting go of our illusionary self is about happiness, about joy. Success is about proving something to the world no matter what. But like with everything else letting go of our ideas might bring us great success, money and fame but it will also make us happy. We are trying to have success to be able to effort happiness. Why not go directly to happiness if that is what we want from life?

"The light at the end of the tunnel". Williamsburg/Brooklyn 01-30-08 at 04:12 PM.

 

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