Las Vegas (Part 3)
I am back in New York. I had one more fun day in Vegas and took the Red Eye back last night. I have to admit I am absolutely exhausted. I really pushed the envelope in the last couple of days. Now it is time to take it easy, to detoxify, to get back into shape and to sleep enough.
I had a great time on this trip and want to thank Ming and Kathy again for inviting me and make it all possible. I have to admit that marriage is something that has scared me all my life since my parents had a very ugly divorce when I was 12 years old. That has tremendously influenced my belief system about relationships and marriage. Based on my experiences I believed for a long time that getting married makes no sense.
But like with everything else I do not want to let my past control the future. How can we transcend the past? First we have to understand why we feel how we feel and what impact the past has on our perception. Then we have to have an experience that shows us that what we believed in the past might have been a misperception and things we believed impossible are indeed possible.
I had such an experience this weekend. Ming and Kathy make a great couple. They have been together for ten years and when you look at them you just know it fits. To see that is a great help for me to be able to let my old belief systems go and to experience that it is possible to find the right person.
Another idea I was able to let go off is that it will be the end of the world if I do not post on the blog for one day. Guess what I did not and the sun still rose in the morning and I am still alive.
Coming back to my place I realized how little desire I have to be here all the time and how often I forget that there is a big world out there while I am stuck in front of my computer. I also realized how much I restrict myself in the attempt to save money. I have my own business and yes it is important to put as much money back into it as I can but it is also important to live a little and not be too afraid to drop a few hundred dollars here and there for myself.
I want to travel more; I want to have more adventures like I had last weekend. To me the best way to grow is to let life be my teacher.
"Las Vegas III" Las Vegas 03-30-08 at 02:39 PM
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