Honesty

After a long day of editing and preparing for a video shoot next week I ended up going out for a little while even though it was not planned.

I had fun tonight. I thought a lot about Michael’s comment the last two days. I either listen to my inner voice or the voices in my head. According to him it is either or and listening to your inner voice is the right decision. Since the beginning of this year I have been trying only to listen to my inner voice. I practiced that tonight. I said whatever came up. I expressed what wanted to be expressed.

The amazing thing is that very often what I say is absolutely ridiculous. I say what comes up and while I am saying it I am holding my breath because I am afraid it will get me into trouble. What I say pushes people’s buttons quite a bit but at the same time they seem to be very interested in me and want to find out who this guy is that does not hold back and is not afraid to be himself. They want to talk to me; they want to get to know me. Why? Because I am honest. Honest to them and honest to myself.

"Honesty" Williamsburg/Brooklyn/Union Pool 05-01-08 at 10:08 PM

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