Dried Out
The water had been shut off for most of the day. I missed a short window of opportunity yesterday afternoon. For about three hours we had water but I was too busy to take a shower. I went to kung fu in the evening and was looking forward to a hot shower after a hard workout that left me drenched.
When I got home and turned the water on not even a drop came out of the showerhead. I was so upset. There was no water in the morning either. By now I had surrendered. Why get upset about something I have no control over? I knew they were doing repairs on the main water pipe in the basement. It would take as long as it would take. When I finally got to the gym this afternoon I had made it through more the 60 hours without a shower.
The cut off water supply has reminded me on what is happening in my life right now. I used to constantly replenish limiting beliefs about myself. My mind always kept me on the “I’m not good enough” course. I constantly had the following on my mind: You are not intelligent enough, handsome enough, nice enough, rich enough, talented enough, creative enough, fit enough, tough enough, tall enough, successful enough and/or flexible enough.
What was the outcome of that? I had very low self-confidence and because of that I saw the ideas I had about myself proven right on a daily basis. This limited how I experienced life tremendously. I was hiding I was not able to do what I had to do and I was not living life to the fullest.
I have changed. Because of the work I have been doing I was able to cut of the main pipe in my head that was replenishing the limiting beliefs about myself. They dried out. None of the beliefs I listed above do cross my mind any more.
Since the outside is a mirror of our inner world I feel imbalanced at the moment. My life is trying to catch up with how I have changed on the inside but has a hard time doing so because of the vastness and the speed of the alteration.
Exciting times lie ahead, everything is about to change…….
"Dried Out" Williamsburg/ Brooklyn/ Died out lemon 08-19-08 at 11:47 PM
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