I do what I am doing only to be validated by my parents. I date my girlfriend because I am attracted to emotionally unavailable women. I spent time with my family out of guilt not out of love. I am not attracted to the opposite sex but to the same sex. When I date I find people who use me because I feel I have nothing to offer. My parents don’t love me they always only pretended to do so. I do not believe that I am beautiful this is why people do not want to be with me. I was never self-confidant I just acted like I was. I am not getting paid well because I believe I am not good in what I am doing. I do not want to talk to other people because I feel I have nothing to say. I am afraid of confrontation because I think I am weak. I am cheap because I am afraid of the future. Guilt runs my life because deep inside I feel I am a bad person. I am afraid of commitment because I was hurt as a child. I do not want to live my full potential because I am afraid to lose my family and friends. I do not want to make money because I am afraid of being powerful. Most of my friends are only in my life because I do business with them. I used my spiritual practices to escape from life. The only reason I am still with my wife is because of the children and the mortgage. I am working hard to have a career because I feel I have nothing to offer without it.

These are only some of the answers that we might get when we start to investigate, when we question our ideas and beliefs. Any of them can have a tremendous impact onto our lives and can turn them upside down.

This is why we are afraid to ask questions. This is why we do not want to know. 

 

 

 

 

 

"Upside Down" Williamsburg/Brooklyn 02-26-08 at 10:35 PM.

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