To change has always been difficult for me since I feel I was only willing to change when I'm with my back against the wall. Today I've been on the island of El Hierro for four months. At the beginning all was new and exciting but after this time I see how much I start to get used to my new environment and how much I start to repeat old patterns again. I feel a bit lost right now, not really knowing what the next step should be. At the same time I want to move forward, I'm ready to change. I was really inspired by Sorelle Amore who is talking in her video about having lost her identity. I feel the same. My old identity has left me but the new one hasn't formed yet. She is talking in her video, I link it below, about looking at different parts of your life, to rate how good you are doing with that part of your life and then being what you can improve. But I wanted more. I wanted a physical commitment to be able to se that I've changed, that I from now do things different.