Ready for Change!
To change has always been difficult for me since I feel I was only willing to change when I'm with my back against the wall. Today I've been on the island of El Hierro for four months. At the beginning all was new and exciting but after this time I see how much I start to get used to my new environment and how much I start to repeat old patterns again. I feel a bit lost right now, not really knowing what the next step should be. At the same time I want to move forward, I'm ready to change. I was really inspired by Sorelle Amore who is talking in her video about having lost her identity. I feel the same. My old identity has left me but the new one hasn't formed yet. She is talking in her video, I link it below, about looking at different parts of your life, to rate how good you are doing with that part of your life and then being what you can improve. But I wanted more. I wanted a physical commitment to be able to se that I've changed, that I from now do things different.
Michael Rosker
My latest Project also involved web design. I was entrusted with designing my spiritual mentor Michael Rosker's website. It opens with the above photograph of Michael. To me this is one of the best portraits I'v ever shot. I'm not sure if what I like the most about this image is the intensity in his eyes, his smile, his overall good looks or all of the above!
Freedom
Last weekend I went on a sailing trip to the Baltic Sea for three days. Many thanks to Julia and Jan to make this trip possible!. We sailed from Kühlungsborn to the Island Poel, from Poel to Fehmarn Island and back to Kühlungsborn. It has been more than 20 Jears since I spent six months on a tall ship but being out at sea the feelings of freedom and peace were back after an hour of leaving shore. To look at the horizon and see nothing but water and sky puts many things in perspective and always helps me to take life less seriously.
Lichtgrenze
Who didn’t experience it can’t imagine what it meant to have Germany’s biggest city and former capital separated by a 66 mile long, 12 ft high wall for 28 years. The Wall essentially made West Berlin an island, tore families and friends apart, cut off streets and subway lines and imprisoned people who lived in the East. The Wall was erected to prevent a “brain drain” in the East. Young, well educated people tended to emigrate to West Germany in the 1950’s, while the boarders were still open, because of the better living conditions in the West.
Faith Bartruff
Faith just sold all she owned and moved with only a few suitcases from LA to the Big Apple. She had a successful career as a fashion designer creating outfits for Beyonce and Nicki Minaj that left her very unfulfilled. One day she realized that nothing she ever had accomplished had ever given her any fulfillment. She came to a breaking point. She says she was crying out to God to change her life, to take away whatever does not make her happy and to create a life that is not only fulfilling to her but would also help others to find fulfillment. Within seconds her life started to change .....
Francheska Lopez
I've known Francheska for a couple of years by now. She is a fantastic contemporary modern dancer that has helped me with other projects in the past. She was part of a series of dance photographs I shot last year and her image is at the moment the opening photograph of my website. Self judgement is something that she, a lot of dancers and in some way or form we all are facing but for her it completely disappears when she is on stage dancing. She calls it her truest form and longs for feeling that way all the time.Francheska thinks that happiness is the meaning of her life and that people often forget that they are not happy but settling for the what they have. She talks about the struggle to live in New York City and that people have to work jobs they don't like (shit end jobs :-)) to make ends meet but do so to live in a city where there is more opportunity while they forget that they could be happier. She concludes by saying that whatever has created this existence is not a terror, is not scary or negative. Having a life is beautiful and that she guarantees that whatever is beyond this got to be beautiful.
